March 20, 2022

Hello, Internet.

Over the last few weeks I have been considering a way forward.  At the end of the school year, I intend to step down from my not-so-lofty position and stay at home to work on my writing and attending to my family.  I will be a househusband with style, and I am looking forward to it.  So much so that I already have a schedule ready for it, one which I have been slowly refining as the second semester winds on.  The problem is, the more I toy with it, the less realistic it feels for me, and so I have to constantly temper my expectations, which is causing me no small amount of disappointment and anxiety.

This anxiety and disappointment has spilled over into the present day and is giving me a sense of paralysis.  I am focusing so much on what I will do in the future that I am not attending to myself right now.  Furthermore, the extra work I have had to pick up as N grows our little Bean has forced me to take on extra chores, most of which I struggle to meet as, as I struggle to meet many things.  All of it has overwhelmed me as my to-do list grows infinitely and forever longer.

S and M are going to have to share a room, and Noodle changes on a dime.  This weekend has provided me the clarity to realize that what I am doing, that is what I am currently doing, is not working and will need some paring down until I can function again.  This is both good and bad for me, as these moments often come as a result of some major event (bad), but they often lead to higher happiness and productivity--a way forward (good).

I will continue updating the blog on Sundays, but I will likely use the time either to vent or post works in progress.  Maybe I will turn Kofi and Patreon (things I haven't even brought up) into repositories for notes and the like.  I plan to do commentary pieces as tools for learning and exploring, to begin building lessons on literature and ELA for future portfolios, and other video and audio related content as I move forward.  And stories are a must.

For now, however, I am narrowing my scope.  I will keep the basic structure of my schedules but be patient with myself when I fall through, and I will focus on keeping myself afloat while the school year finishes.  Until then, I will just keep my head down and keep working, and hopefully learn to practice that patience I preach so much about to the small ladies.

Until then, later.

RWS.

P.S.

-Short Rest-

Books

0. Main: Pyramids by Terry Pratchett

1. Sun: (Manga) One Piece Vol. 76, Ch. 756: “The Fourth Step”—763 27%  (4—11)

Ruroni Kenshin Vol. 5, Act 39—39 100% (9—9)

Zombie Power 100%

JoJo’s Bizarre Adventure Part 2: Battle Tendency Vol. 4, Ch. 59: “The Wind, the Chariot and Wamuu part 9”—69 45% (10—20)

My Hero Academia Vol. 8, No. 63: “Yaoyorzu Rising”—71 0% (1—9)

Boruto Vol. 3, Ch. 8: “You’ll Need To Do It”—11 0% (1—4)

One-Punch Man Vol. 9, Punch 40: “The Man Who Wanted to be a Villain”—46.1 0% (1—11)

My Hero Academia: Vigilantes Vol. 4, Ch. 19: “Family”—26 0% (1—8)

2. Mon: (Fiction) Pyramids by Terry Pratchett 54% (194—358)

3. Tue: (YA) The Giver by Lois Lowry 0% (0—0)

4. Wed: (Non-Fiction) Salt, Fat, Acid, Heat by Samin Nosrat (1—??)

5. Thu: (Reread) American Gods by Neil Gaiman

6. Fri: (DnD5e) Player’s Handbook by Wizards of the Coast (0–X)

7. Sat: (Fan Fiction) Final Fantasy: Fated bytinygaia Ch. 58% (30—50)

8. Squirrel: One Piece Vol. 17 Ch. 148—155

-View from the Cheap Seats by Neil Gaiman 26% (130—502)

Games

-Season of Square-

Currently Under Construction.

Shows

0. Main: Voltron: Legendary Defender

1. Critical Role: “The Final Chapter” 35% (131—141)

2. Funimation: Dragon Ball The General Blue Saga 42% 51—57 (6—12)

3. Owned: Firefly 14% (3—14)

4. Netflix: Voltron: Legendary Defender Season 6 43% (4—7)

5. Online: Batman 36% (12—31)

6. Disney+: Marvel’s Agent Carter Season 1 0% (1—8)

7. Critical Role 7—17

Hawkeye 50% (4—6)

Movies: Star Wars Episode IV: A New Hope

King’s Glaive: Final Fantasy XV

Godzilla: Edge of the Battlefield

Nausicaa of the Valley of the Wind