Friday, July 3, 2020

Project Phoenix #7 "I Hate Fire Works"


With the 4th tomorrow, we've had fireworks going off for weeks.  Jet is completely beside himself with fear, pacing around the house all night, every night.  With everything going on in our country, I cannot feel any less patriotic right now if I tried.  When I was a kid, I would never have thought this, but I hate fire works.

27. Saturday
-Current Mood:
Finished Dragon Prince Season 2!
28. Sunday
29. Monday
30. Tuesday
-Current Mood: Tired
-Good: So far, I have not played any video games tonight.  My goal is to ween myself off of playing so much.  It has become such a nervous habit that I don’t know what to do when I am not playing games, and I am no longer enjoying them as much as I used to.  Less gaming means more quality time when I do play games, which in turn will hopefully return them to being rewards which can replace some of my less becoming habits.
-Bad: I am feeling emotionally exhausted.  I did a very good job today of pulling myself out of an anxiety fit, but I am drained now.  My nerves have been frayed lately, and I am struggling to keep it together.  I just want to miss every day of work forever for the rest of my life.
-Current Goal: Exercise 2%
July
31. Wednesday
-Current Mood: Happy.
-Good: I got to hang out with Noodle tonight, and I’ve got a good Hump Day routine.  I also got to snuggle with my Jet boy today.  At work, I was able to keep my anxiety down and even had time to joke around a bit.  I’m trying hard to improve my mood and my perception of the world, and it seems to be taking hold for a bit.
-Bad: I am feeling happy today, but there is a question at the back of my mind of how long it will last.  I’m almost out of medication, too, and my anxiety seems to be coming and going more.  I am getting better of coping with it, but I am tired of coping.
-Current Goal: Exercise 4%
02. Thursday
-Current Mood: Down.
-Good: I did my homework today, and though I am feeling anxious, I am generally proud of what I wrote.  I also got some early morning writing in, and I am working hard at trying to stay positive.  Tomorrow, I work early, which means I will get off of work early and may be able to get some other things done.
-Bad: I am feeling anxious as the day goes on.  I had soda today, and I didn’t complete my work list.  I have worked hard today, but I just don’t feel like it is enough.
-Current Goal: Exercise
03. Friday
-Current Mood: Tired.
-Good: I wrote today.  In particular, I worked on a story that I haven’t worked on in years.  It felt really rewarding to do it.  Also, Monkey came to school with me and did extremely well.  After how tense things have been surrounding her, I am glad to have good times spent with her.  I hope that it will signal a turnaround for us both.  Also, I have all of my homework done for the week, which is exceptional.
-Bad: After a wonderful day at my school, Monkey had a very rough evening at home.  By supper time, you could see the fatigue in her eyes.  I stayed calm and didn’t raise my voice with her, but it doesn’t always seem to help.  There is something going on that I don’t know how to help, and it is very difficult.
-Current Goal: Exercise 2%

Stories

Post Indigo: Abraham
Emerald Crisis—Final Fantasy VII—Disc Two Concept
Post The Knights of Sheba
Stargazers Part 1 Rough 81% M
The Unnamed Saga: Four Thrones Novel Rough 9%
New Rangers: Mighty Morphin Part 1 Rough 0%
Yggdrasil & Echo Concept
Red Verse Vigil: Gang Wars Rough 0%
Jacob is Trapped in the Closet Vol. 1 Research 0%
Books
Sun: 21st Century Parenting by Rick Capaldi
Mon: One-Punch Man Vol. 3, Ch. 23—23.1
Tue: Jojo’s Bizarre Adventure: Part 1—Phantom Blood Vol. 3. Ch. 33—44
Wed: My Hero Academia Vol. 3, Ch. 23—26
Thu: Yu-Gi-Oh! Vol. 2, Duel 8—15
Fri: American Gods by Neil Gaiman
Sat: One Piece Ch. 487
Shows
Weekend: Critical Role/Talks Machina
-Funimation: Dragon Ball “Tournament Saga” 23
—28
-Owned: Gundam Wing 25—27
-Netflix: Tengen Toppa Gurren Lagann 2—27
-Online: Digimon Adventure File Island Arc 3—13
-Disney+: Disney Shorts 1920s
Weekend: Critical Role/Talks Machina
Games
1. Console: Star Ocean: Till the End of Time
2. Short: What Remains of Edith Finch
3. JRPG: Tales of Vesperia Remastered
4. Series: .hack//MUTATION
5. Free Play: Final Fantasy VII: Remake/Tomb Raider Definitive Edition
6. Multiple: Dragon Age: Origins Duran Aeducan Replay

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