Bad News Blog Gaiden/"The Goodest Boy"

 Hello Internet,

Nearly half a year ago, a member of my immediate family died.  He was furry, and sweet, and he made everyone's life richer by simply being in it.  Yesterday, I found an old letter I had started writing to him to try and cope with my feelings at the time.  It is a bit heavy-handed, and it is very sappy and selfish, but I think at the time that is what I needed.  It's also very vulnerable; it is raw and unrefined.  I am sharing it partly to show how bad my writing can be but also to show a part of my process and how I use writing to help me cope.

It is also unfinished, so bare with me.

"Dear Jet,

I am having a hard time processing this, possibly because I feel like I want to process it immediately. I do not want to give myself time to feel any of it, but the numb, the emptiness, isn’t working well with me at all, either.  In short, I am going to miss you.  I cannot adequately express the depths of how much or how deeply I will miss you, but I can feel it already.  As I get closer, I think it will only get worse as each passing hour comes and goes.  

It is not about the shortcomings I feel, though I do feel them.  I think the pain is likely selfish for me.  It makes me feel sad because I will be without you, and I am predicting my own sadness because I know what parts of me will hurt. I know that I will see things, that I will think things, that I will miss you and feel the absence of you in the evenings.  I will miss taking you to the bathroom, and I will miss how inconvenient all of it is for me.

I love you, Jet, and I am happy to have had you in my life.  You saved me, you and everyone else in our little family.  You made me better.  You made me grow.  Thank you for all of the love you gave me over the years, all of the joy and the play, and all of the licks.  You were a generous creature with love and passion which I can never hope to replicate.  Thank you.

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He was a sleek dog, more gentle and kind than any other creature I have ever met.  To cope with his loss, I will need to learn from him.  I want to take him into myself, to become..."

Thanks for reading.

Sincerely,

RWS

P.S.

-Short Rest-

Books

Tower: Final Fantasy: Fated by tinygaia

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2. Mon: One-Punch Man Vol. 11, Punch 57.2: “Monstrous Insect”-59 30% (4—10)

3. Tue: Kingdom Hearts Vol. 1, Ch. 4: “A Giant Shadow”

4. Wed: My Hero Academia Vol. 10, No. 88: “All For One”—89 78% (8—9)

My Hero Academia: Vigilantes Vol. 4, Ep. 32: “The Job”—35 56% (6—9)

5. Thu: Soul Eater Vol. 1, Ch. 1: “”

6. Fri: Samurai 8: The Tale of Hachimaru Vol. 1, Ch. 4: “Family Argument”—6 50% (4—6)

Boruto: The Next Generation Vol.??

7. Sat: Books

-Fiction: Pyramids by Terry Pratchett

-Library: Trans Medicine: The Emergence and Practice of Treating Gender by Stef M. Shuster

-YA: The Giver by Lois Lowry

-Fan Fiction: Final Fantasy: Fated to Ch. 50 by tinygaia Ch. 50—50, 100% 

-Nonfiction: Salt, Fat, Acid, Heat by Samin Nosrat 0% (?—??)

View from the Cheap Seats by Neil Gaiman 26% (130—502)

-DnD5e: Player’s Hand Book by Wizards of the Coast 0% (?—??)

-Reread

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Tower: .hack//MUTATION

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5. Bioware: Dragon Age: Origins Kallian Tabris 14% (10/74hrs)

6. Series: .hack//MUTATION 91% (48/50hrs(21/23hrs))

7. Free: Persona 5: Royal

8. Handheld: Persona Q: Shadow of the Labyrinth P3 ??% (??/80hrs)

Stardew Valley 

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Tower: Exandria: Unlimited

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Dimension 20 Unsleeping City Ep. 4: “Scramble in the Sewers”—17 23%

2. Anime: Digimon: Adventure Myotismon Arc 50% (24—28(4—8))

3. Online/Owned: Archer Season 2 54% (8—13)

4. Netflix: Seven Deadly Sins Season 1 29% (8—24)

5. Disney+: X-Men Season 1 39% (6—13)

6. HBO: Teen Titans Season 1 54% (8—13)

7. Movies: Firefly 21% (4—14)

Moon Knight 50% (4—6) 

X-Men

Promare

Castle in the Sky

Solo: A Star Wars Story

Dumbo