Friday, March 20, 2020

Project Phoenix #2: "My Thoughts on COVID-19"


Follows are my thoughts about our current COVID-19 pandemic:


These are strange times, made only stranger by the way people are reacting.  Looking at the news, we would expect to see hordes of zombies roving the streets, breaking down windows and infecting those uninfected with their virulent breath.  Instead, we find the outdoors mostly empty, save for those poor unfortunate few who must brave the (where I live) rain to attend work while an unshakeable pall falls over the our populace wherever we go.
Rhetoric has become such a large part of our lives now.  We have a twenty-four hour feed plugged straight into our TVs, our phones, our eyes, and our brains that keeps us not only complacent but well-fed on half-truths and full-lies meant to placate us or, in some cases, move us to particular actions.  Fear has long motivated people and often seems a better motivator than anything else, and right now we’re being fed fear while stores go bare of groceries.  Worse yet, we are buying the fear whole-sale and consuming it greedily, glutting ourselves on it, growing fat on it, and strangling ourselves with it.
COVID-19 is dangerous.  It is a pandemic, and it has affected, in total, less than 1% of our world population.  Significantly less.  Almost laughably less.  Which in no way diminishes the death it has caused, nor does it affect our lives any less, either.  It is real, and we should take steps to mitigate its effect on us because, if we aren’t vigilant, it could easily spread to consuming that 1% or more before we could find a viable cure or response.  This is not a call to leave your home and attend a gathering, nor is it a call to cough and then touch every microphone as a joke afterward, but it is a call to think rationally at a time where irrationality seems so much easier.
When speaking with my Noodle (my wife), she told me that she doesn’t think that the world will ever change back.  Which seems crazy to me, but I understand what she is saying.  We haven’t ever faced something like this—our generation, not humanity, humanity has faced worse and come out of it—and while I don’t entirely agree with her assessment, I do think that people need to start thinking about what the world will be like after.
The problem is that everyone is lying to us.  It is all a manipulation.  One side wants us to hate the Chinese and blame the Chinese because it covers up their own ineptitude and inaction in the face of a coming epidemic for which they had plenty warning.  Lackadaisical in their response, they point the finger at an entire country, an entire people, rather than accept responsibility for their own failings and working to make it better.
The other side, however, wants to keep you afraid.  They want to keep you afraid because it will mobilize you into action, and they want to keep you afraid because it leads you away from their political enemies, and they want to keep you afraid because sensationalism sells and they want their retweets and their views and their ad-revenue.  It is all rhetoric, however, whatever their intentions might be.
Rhetoric is pleasing language.  Specifically speaking, it is the art or skill of persuasive speech.  Practiced in ancient Greece, the art itself has been carried on and refined into our modern era.  A debate has long been had as to the potential evil of rhetoric as a tool for persuading people into wrong things, i.e. convincingly lying to a population to lead turn them against what is right; conversely, some believe that rhetoric can be used to persuade otherwise obstinate people into righteous action, i.e. having a skilled speaker explain a good thing rather than the uncharismatic doctor/scientist/whomever.
The problem is that everyone is trying to sell you something. Even this is a sales pitch, and I make no illusions of that.  At this point, the tension is too great for me, and I cannot handle a world that has gone this far off its axis.  I am suffering intense compassion fatigue, and I haven’t even started my social isolation yet; today is my last day of work for three weeks, and I cannot stand being home in the evenings.   I need people to stop being doom and gloom and to recognize that we will recover, and I need it bad, so I am trying to convince you of that.
More than that, though, I am trying to convince you to be rational.  Shop like you normally would and stop hording things because someone else needs that toilet paper more than you need it.  Stop looking up how many ventilators your local hospital has because, if you isolate, it shouldn’t be a problem, and even if it is a problem, it’s probably not one that you yourself can solve.  Stop worrying about when things will go back to normal, because no one knows and it doesn’t really matter, it will in time, and stop blaming China because just over 3,000 people have died there already and it’s damn petty to sitting around pointing fingers like we’re trying to figure out who farted.  We all did it wrong (yes, even you who was stocking-piling for the apocalypse).

P.S. I started this while I was at work waiting for children to be dropped off and stopped writing when one of my coworkers arrived and interrupted my flow.  Looking back on it, I was trying to process my own feelings about everything that is happening, particularly the compassion fatigue I seem to be experiencing.  Sometimes, writing helps me process and heal, and other times it only causes me to cycle harder.  This one was healing.

P.P.S.  While I stand by much of what I typed here, I must also make note of how incoherent it is.  I wish I could say that I am someone who gets it right in the first draft, but I am no Kate Chopin, and editing and revision are where my writing becomes my writing.  All of this to say, this is an approximation of my true feelings on the matter--as close as I could get at the time.  I may go back and revise it later, once I have more perspective, but it will do for now.


14. Saturday
-Current Mood: Fried.
-Good: I changed my game schedule to something I think will be a bit more manageable.
-Bad: My anxiety and anger got the best of me today.
-Current Goal: Exercise 0%
Finished Tenchi Muyo! OVA
15. Sunday
-Current Mood: Accomplished.
-Good: Played Trivial Pursuit: Live! With the Noodle, had a BLT for supper, and just had a generally productive day.
-Bad: I am exceptionally bloated right now and look a bit like a house.
-Current Goal: Exercise 2%
16. Monday
-Current Mood:
17. Tuesday
18. Wednesday
19. Thursday
20. Friday
-Current Mood: Tired.
-Good: Noodle’s mood seems to have improved some.
-Bad: I am not following the schedule I set out for myself.
-Current Goal: Exercise: 2%
Stories

Post Indigo: Abraham
Post Emerald Crisis—Final Fantasy VII—Disc One
The Knights of Sheba Editing 61% M
Stargazers Part 1 Outline 84%
The Unnamed Story: Four Thrones Revision 9%
Spooky House: Year One Rough 0%
Yggdrasil Concept
Red Verse Vigil: Gang Wars Rough 0%
Echo Concept
New Rangers: Mighty Morphin’ Part 1 Rough 0%
Jacob is Trapped in the Closet S1 Outline 2%
Books
Sun: Writer’s Guide 2020 pg. 15
Mon: One-Punch Man Vol. 2, Punch 20.1
Tue: Jojo’s Bizarre Adventure: Part 1—Phantom Blood Vol. 2, Chapter 23—Ch. 27
Wed: My Hero Academia Vol. 2, Chapter 17: “Game Over”
Thu: Yu-Gi-Oh! Vol. 1, Duel 7: “The Face of Truth”
Fri: We are What We Pretend to be by Kurt Vonnegut
Sat: One Piece Ch. 466
Shows
Weekend: Critical Role/Talks Machina
-Funimation: Cowboy Bebop: The Movie 45mins
-Owned: Gundam Wing 15—27
-Netflix: Voltron: Legendary Defender 3.7
-Online: Witch Hunter Robin 17
-Disney+: Disney Shorts 1920s
Weekend: Critical Role/Talks Machina
Games
1. Console: Earthbound
2. New: Bioshock
3. JRPG: Tales of Xillia 2
4. Series: Kingdom Hearts II Final Mix HD—Twilight Town/Mysterious Tower
5. Replay: Persona 5: The Royal*when released**Final Fantasy VII: Remaster if delayed
6. Multiple: Dragon Age: Origins Duran Aeducan Replay

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